January 04, 2010

"Hermitize!" ... or "Very Bad Things"

When I get stressed, I hermitize. I don't know why, but its something that I've always done. Usually I don't know that I'm stressed right away. I start to get this urge to play video games, drink beer, and not call anyone. Not just not call - I actively avoid being contacted.

I guess my lifestyle right now doesn't allow for that behavior to get out of control... but for some reason I reached a state of zen escapism this holiday, and I did not want it to end!!

Not only was my break coming to a swift end, but the reality of my crappy financial situation, along with the increasing pressure to decide on a specialty just all seemed to be amplified by the emptiness created in my hermit stint (that only lasted 3 days).

Anyways, last night I was in full on panic mode, with the last hours of vacation coming to an end. I wasn't able to sleep for more than an hours. Thankfully emerge orientation today was not the beast I'd built it up to be in my head, and my stress began to drain away. Thank goodness, because my coping mechanisms sometimes can lead to very bad things... laziness, junk food, and the more I do that that more I want to hermitize!

So this is me... after a long absence of blogging... I'm still the same driven, neurotic, sometimes calm, sometimes organized, sometimes completely falling apart guy that I was when I started this.

Much has changed in my life. More than the blog will ever know. But I'm coming to another milestone in my life and figured I'd be able to benefit from getting some of my thoughts down on paper.

To 2010 being a great year for everyone!
All the best,
A

Posted by apink at 09:12 PM | Comments (0)

December 12, 2009

I'm back. And I have something to say...

It's been nearly 2 years and a lot has changed....

For one, I feel like blogging.
For two, every year I feel guilty about the death of my blog, I keep paying to keep it alive.
For three, I'm angsty and writing helps.
For four, I have an iPhone, and it's easy to blog from anywhere with it!

So stay tuned! And happy chanukah!

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